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20 March 2016 @ 03:02 pm
Heroine Defeated (X-Men; Scott/Jean, Scott/Emma; PG/K+; #149: Barricade)  
Title: Heroine Defeated
Author: Kat Lee
Fandom: X-Men
Character/Pairing: Scott/Jean, Scott/Emma
Rating: PG/K+
Challenge/Prompt: comicdrabbles #149: Barricade
Warning(s): None
Word Count: 450
Date Written: 20 March, 2016
Disclaimer: All characters within belong to Marvel Comics and Disney, not the author, and are used without permission.

She pretends she doesn't notice the looks they exchange in meetings. She overlooks the way Emma brushes against her husband. After all, the woman is a whore but a part of the team. She's going to try to move on every man in their midst, but it doesn't mean Jean has to play her game. She's better than that. She's better than her, or so she tells herself.

Scott can't love her. He has always loved her. Even when he married another woman, it was because she reminded him of her, and he only fell for her when he thought Jean was dead and taken from him forever. She is very much alive and a part of his every day life. They do everything together, from saving the world to watching TV and rubbing each other's feet to even running the daily lives of their team and family.

He can't love another woman. They're soul mates. They've gone through time together, died several times, and always come back to each other. So when she finally senses the barricade in his mind, the realization comes as an icy slap from the Frost Queen. She doesn't want to believe it, but as she pokes at the edges, she knows it's true.

There's another woman in her husband's mind. There's another woman in his heart. And as Scott lays down beside her and wraps her in arms that used to be full of safety, love, and comfort, Jean shivers. She cringes. But she can't tell him she knows.

It's not that she was prying into his mind. They've always shared a mental link. She didn't mean to stumble across the wall, but stumble, she did. Fall, she did. But she doesn't have the words to describe how she's feeling. She doesn't have the voice to ask him why and how he could choose that woman over her. She can't stay strong enough to tell him he's condemned her without breaking down and showing him just how much his betrayal hurts.

She's saved the world single handedly before. She's faced every one of the X-Men's greatest foes and came away a winner. She went to the future and mothered a son for him that was not her own. She regrets none of these things. She only regrets this moment where, ultimately, she knows she's weak.

She ignores Scott's trailing hands. She presses her face into her pillow, feigning sleep and silencing the scream that's risen in her throat. She presses her lips together and silences her sobs, and with her husband's arms around her, she cries. She cries, because she knows she's lost him. She cries, because with him, he's taken her whole world.

The End